Dear Diary,
Its 2am and I can not sleep. My mind is full of thoughts about mylife. How it is going and how I thought it would be going by now. My heart is heavy and i have tears in my eyes, yet I cant really explain why. Its difficult to let things go when one had too much expectations of what the future will bring.
Im worried about my family, my parents in particular. Their health both mentaly and physically. Im worried about myson, he fell sick in december and now he is undet medication everyday since then. Silver lining is he started walking this month at 25months. But im still worried, what if he really has leigh syndrome? What if I lose him too?
I also miss my daughter. I wonder what she would have looked like, everytime I look at his twin I cant help it but remember her. I regrett never seeing herface, not seeing what she looked like. I misd what mylife would have been
Yours Truly
Rubi
