Off_Guard

Dear Diary,

Today I'm feeling a little queasy. Things in mylife have been a mixture of good and bad lately, and I'm honestly at loss as to what to feel exactly. This previous weekend was one of the most happy days of mylife, I was betrothed by the love of mylife. It felt good and still does. My parents are so pleased with me, for I am giving them something that every African parents dreams of.

On the other hand I'm at loss as what to with my siblings. I think something from space hit them in the head, because I do not understand how they can be acting so stubborn , reckless and careless. I hate to see my parents hurt, and I'm not saying I have always been a good girl. In my days I hurt them too, there were times I said things I shouldn't have, and acted the way I shouldn't have, but whatever I did back then my two siblings are doing it tenfold.

I find myself saying a prayer for my family, and pray that God shows them that Life isn't supposed to be Lived like that. . . . No one will ever truly value you if you do not love your parents, that's a fact.

Its guaranteed that life will catch you offguard sometimes
Surprise you with things that u were not prepared for
And you will stumble from your path at least for a while
But these surprises are not always bad Sometimes life surprises you with wonderful wonderful things
Like how you may find love in very unexpected places
And wealth in the least place you would look But in the game of life, these things are a must and are inevitable.

When you are caught offguard by good events
Embrace them but do not let them stir you or distract you from your original plan Because good or bad a distraction is a distraction
When such events are bad and they hit you in such a way that life looses its meaningful And the path to your future seems blank and pitch black
Do not stop moving, use your heart and instincts to keep moving in the right direction
And your hands to feels the way and obstacles.
Because in the end it doesn't matter how you got there but the thing is you did get there.

Yours Truly,
Rubi.

Save your soul

Dear Diary

I love Mother Theresa's anyway poem, mainly because it always gives me such satisfaction that cruelty of this world should not be a reason for a person to also be cruel. It goes like this. . . .

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

~ :) ~

This poem somehow for at least a moment there when u read it gives u the will power to keep on living and be good. It may not matter how nice you are, how good you are to other people, how helpful you are to other people because people always forget. The important thing is to always remember that anything you do to help others is not for them but rather for yourself and for the peace of your own soul.

People are mean, manipulative, angry, ungrateful, cruel and so many many more bad things, but it is important to remember not to loose your faith and your soul to all that. It doesn't matter why, just be a good human being

Rubi