Dear diary,
This has been terrible week. I do not remember the last time i had so many misfortunes happen to me at once. I have cried and been in pain both physically and mentally,and as it comes to an end my heart is still heavy from all that has happened to me, and to some of the pain that I am sure that I am carrying with me to the coming week.
Iv been beaten this week, physically physically beaten. And before that my mum fell terribly ill and it was so scary, that evening was so long. The next day my younger brother, the guy whose dipers I changed as a baby beat me up so bad, in the presence of my sick mum. And then that evening stupid my ex who later dated myfriend simply decided to say that I slept with him while he was dating myfriend. Ad if that was not enough my mother who has recovered now simply decided that my beating from my brother was all my fault and I deserved it. So Im in a big fight with her
As if i hadnt had enough crap for the week these two fools, my brother inlaw and his wife had bought a car without telling his mother who also happens to be my almost mother inlaw, somehow she found out that they have bought a car and guess what? The idiots decides that it has to be me whu must have told her. Im so down, im really sad and confused and sad. Im hoping and pray that all this comes to an end.
I have never contemplated suicide but this week has pushed me to the limit. Keeping in mind that I am so broke, i am super broke and I hate begging. I know that this is just a storm and i know it will pass, but God I hope it does fast, coz im not sure for how long I can hold on.
Yours truly
Rubi
