Dear diary,
I'm missing my father. I'm thinking of him everyday, and I hope Wherever he is he is alright and looking down on us. I'm trying so hard to my way, trying to be happy through so much sorrow, but I'm not strong enough. I break down from time to time, and remember that he is really gone and I'll never see him again. He won't be sitting there, at the back of the church the day I'm being wed and watch and be happy for me.
If you can hear me dad, my heart is in so much pain, I miss you everyday, I think of you all the time, I regret all the time that we didn't spend together and get to know each other better. I watch my siblings and I look at their mother and we all feel lost, you were a compass in ourlives. We do not even know where to begin daddy, how were you doing this? It seemed so easy, but really its anything but. We pray for you, no one has recovered yet, in our hearts you are still alive as a morning sunshine, We are all struggling to find our way, but we miss you so much. We see you everywhere we turn, where we walk and when we sleep.
You were a good man dad, my heart aches, I don know where or when this pain will come to an end. If you see my grand Pa there please say hi, and tell him that I also miss him so very much, I also never got a last chance with him just like I didn't with you. I am marrying a goodman who loves me, and I still have great people in my life who loves me, but in myheart down deep I'll always wish you two were there on my big day. I love you both so much. The life you lead, was amazing, you are being missed dad, and grandpa you have a gold star in myheart as the first father I ever knew. I hope u can feel all this, and know how much I miss you all, and pray that your souls are resting in eternal peace.
We will meet one day in the clouds, I know we will. With all my love.
Yours Truly,
Rubi
