Dear diary,
I knew a girl once, she sweet and innocent, and ofcourse naïve. Naïve in a sense that she believed in perfect love, perfect world and perfect people. but the world was not all that colourful as she thought and soon enough she learnt her lesson. People are not black and white as they appear, well at least not their characters. people on the inside are like chameleons, there are never perfectly good people, or perfectly bad ones either. no matter how devious a person can be they must have done something good, even if it was only for one person and that makes them not one hundred percent devious. And no matter how good a person may appear to be somewhere somehow they have done something wrong against someone and that makes them less perfect as good people.
This naïve girl learnt her lesson, people were her school, they taught her how good people can be and how absolutely devious they can become. That people change, from good to bad mostly, rarely from bad to good. She fell in love, and was betrayed, her heart grew cold and then thawed and learnt to love again, this time someone worthy of loving and not just any Jack in pants.
This process has made her heart stronger, though she is no longer naïve, she is still sweet, she loves hard, cares hard enough and for those people who deserve it protects them even when such people don't think they need it. or even worse when such people hate her for it. she speaks her mind now, and it gets her in trouble every now in a while People say things about her, some true things that have been woven into a web of manipulated lies and some completely blanket of lies. But again, her heart isn't what it used to be, she is sweet and loving and not naïve, she takes everyday as it comes, live for those who deserve it, thank God for every sunrise and every dawn for her heart is always at peace.
Without a care in the world she lives her life. With a motto that you do not have to explain anything, well about yourself anyway because those people who truly loves you knows you and they do not need any explanation from you. they know what you are capable of and how far you can go in doing some things. they spot a lie said about you a mile away, even a web of truth that has been woven into lies as well. And those who need explanation do not really matter, because if they did they wouldn't need any. Life is too short to be stuck in the past.
Take one day at a time, and keep moving forward.
Yours Truly,
Rubi.
